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[Aug. 18th, 2006|10:19 pm] |
Yes
You scored 97 Compatibility! |
You can do it. It's in you. You've either studied hard on the subject or you just have the knack for understanding. A bipolar partner can enrich your life because you have the right attitude: you cope, not control.
You understand the virtue of silence, the importance of taking away potential sources of danger when your loved one enters mania, and yet you also know how to allow them enough freedom to survive. You revel in their creativity and their energy. You are watchful and careful. You don't treat them as less intelligent or less able. They are your equals at all times. You are a partner, not a master in the relationship.
Good for you. Some bipolar out there is waiting for you to enrich her or his life. |
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My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 99% on BPCompatible |
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[Mar. 10th, 2004|09:44 pm] |
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I have the most adorable nephew in the world. He's so gorgeous. I miss him so much now I've been 3 days without him. He's probably growing as I speak.
Facing the fact that I may have something wrong with me. (though still not likely) Has sent my biological clock on overload. All I could think of was how I wanted one, and my mom is being bad and encouraging me lol.
First I have to find a job where I'm not working over 50 hours 6 days a week, and making peanuts. I want to move to find something where I can really make money. I don't mind working hard, but I want to have something in return for my efforts.
And I WILL find something. I'm looking up jobs that sound interesting and finding out what kind of experience and schooling I need. I applied for a new job at work, it's one I've wanted for awhile. It's a lead over what I used to do, and it's kind of an assistant manager position. Hopefully I get it, it's not where I want to be, but it's a way to put managemnt on my resume.
I'll get where I want to be soon. |
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| I got my xray results back today |
[Mar. 3rd, 2004|01:39 pm] |
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| |  scared | ] |
I don't have pneumonia so it's just bad bronchitis YAY.
The bad news is that they saw a small nodule in one of my lungs. They want me to go back in May to get another x-ray to see if there's any change.
I tried to think of all the things it could be, ofcourse lung cancer keeps popping in. But my family has a history of benign tumors. My mom has 2 in her lungs. And if they thought it was that they'd have me in quicker then May to get it checked out.
I hope.
One the good side on Saturday my new nephew Jacob Ryan was born :} |
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| oh wow |
[Feb. 21st, 2004|09:35 pm] |
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| | shocked | ] |
Okay guy I was talking about in June with him leaving and how upset I was.
Just got an email from him. He's getting married in May he just proposed her this week, went to Hawaii to see her.
And I'm invited to the reception YAY.
Okay wow. hmm wow. |
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| DO NOT DRIVE DRUNK |
[Feb. 10th, 2004|10:33 pm] |
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| |  thankful | ] |
| [ | music |
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A drunk driver nearly killed my mom and step-dad tonight and succeeded in killing others tonight. They were driving to Dallas tonight and this guy swerves, Semi's all around. The semi's try to swerve to miss him, my mom is stuck between two, but luckily sped up in time before she was hit. My step-dad however, who was driving behind her, did get hit. He's okay but the bumper of the truck isn't it. There were at least 3 semi trucks involved, luckily they were excellent drivers. And the people behind all this are the ones who got killed. The drunk driver was hurt pretty badly, but is still alive. Since it's Texas he should have a long trial ahead of him.
All because he decided to drive after drinking. The could have taken my mommy from me, and from her 5 other children.
Think before you try to drive after drinking. You don't want to take someone's mother from them.
That goes for after you get high, or stoned on anything too. |
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| finally |
[Feb. 6th, 2004|08:34 pm] |
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| |  naughty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "when you say you love me" Clay Aiken. | ] |
Okay finally have a little bit of energy to write with. My life has changed a lot since I've written. All the stuff before, the people I work right with, the best supervisor. All taken from me. I was forced onto a team I didn't want to go on. I fought it as hard as I could. but i was to "valuable". Obviously not so valuable because 2 weeks later they asked me to go onto another team.
Now I'm doing corrections, which sometimes I like sometimes I hate. It's a much smaller team and a bunch harder supervisor. I"m in a different room then most of my friends and when I go into my old room I'm always on watch by the new room director. Luckily it is a part of my job to go into that room and talk to the pharmacist in there.
This week I was in charge of the Dr call corrections because Nikki's on vacation. I'm supposed to be regular corrections dont' even know how I ended up where I am at the moment. These are much harder. But with a lot of help I've been able to keep up. A lot of help and doing 10 hour days that is. I really can't wait for Nikki to get back.
So, one friend is in another room. And the other is out on personal stuff.
But it's made me realize I've gotta do stuff to make myself happy and not to be with people. I miss my old seating though. I was so happy with Steph behind me, erik beside me and Sam in front. It was the perfect placing for me and I miss it.
But life has to move on.
My little sister has been really sick recently. We've been to the ER 3 times with her. She had surgery in December to help her reflux and hiatal hernia. 2 weeks later she starts dry heaving, which with the new surgery could pull something and rupture and kill her. She can't throw up with the surgery. so we take her to the er they tell her she has gastritis and severe dehydration after 10 hours in the ER. 3 spent with her in the hallway waiting for a room and us now allowed to go see her. We called 911 and the ambulance took her. the next day she went to see her surgeon and he sent her to the childrens hospital er. From there they admitted her into the hospital where she ended up being for a week. They finally decided she had a severe flu with dehydration made worse from the surgery.
A week later she starts dry heaving again and we take her straight to the children's hospital er. Where she has this horrible dr. The wait wasn't as long. but they gave her enemas and tried this test and ended up hurting her with putting stuff through her nose dcown her throat and doing it wrong and still not working. Which we found out shouldn't have been done because of her surgery. Well after all this the dr diagnosed her with constipation (after going through 3 other diagnoses and being very rude and treating her like she's faking). Her surgeon got very mad and had him fired the next day (this guy works with little kids shouldn't be there and sems it wasn't his first complaint).
Anyways turns out she has a UTI and kidney infection and what they thought was a kidney stone. I dont' understand how she was in the hospital for a freaking week without them finding this. It was definately there when she was checkd in. Well they've got the infections under control. And they were worried about her kidneys because one was enlarged. But after more test they think she'd already passed the stone and that'd made her kidney bigger for awhile. And probably caused the infections in the first place.
Now the poor thing is doing better. It's been rough. For awhile I was working going to the hospital, coming home sleeping a few hours. Getting up and starting again. Luckily work is in between the hospital and home. Definately helps you prioritize seeing someone you love so much so sick.
I missed a few days of work for it and it's counting towards my attendance, but she's worth it.
It's just so good to see her starting towards herself again. Things are starting to get a little better right now. Hopefully they stay that way.
I've been so stressed and depressed lately. I'll just start feeling better and something else knocks me down. Right now things feel okay. I'm hoping to stay that way. My drs would have a field day with me saying that. They keep wanting to put me on antidepressants to fight my tiredness. They think the being tired means I'm depressed all the time. I told them no way. I tried one low grade, low dose of an antidepressant to help me sleep through the night for a week. I went crazy again. I couldn't sleep at all, had no appetite, moods out of control, freaking out over small things, and basically out of control and more towards how I was in high school. Which I think the meds i was on had a lot to do with how I ended up for awhile. I haven't been like that in a long time. It took me about a month to get over that. As depressed as I'm getting right now it's nothing compared to how bad those make me. I also got kind of wild, well wild for me. More daredevilish, driving faster, making moves on friends I shouldn't have. And almost making out with a stranger. yeah nice kim. much better this way lol.
Though I still have the urge to make out with someone. Hmm oh well lol.
Well there's my mini update. Tons more going on but I'm getting tired. have a great night :} |
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| quiz time |
[Nov. 22nd, 2003|07:23 pm] |
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You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
EXTRA: Your personality type is the only one on
this quiz that would enjoy www.life-
blood.vze.com Check it out!
What kind of girl are you?
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You are too innocent and sweet for your own good.
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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You represent... apathy.
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[Nov. 16th, 2003|09:33 am] |
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I scored a 19% on the "How selfish are you?" Quizie! What about you?</b> |
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| Another entry. |
[Nov. 2nd, 2003|10:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exanimate | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Touch" Clay Aiken | ] |
I'm losing myself. Slowly bit by bit I slip away. I feel more like a shadow of who I am most of the time. My life seems like a dream that I move through. As though not a thing I do matters. I can talk to someone for hours, and feellike I was never even there. nothing is connecting right. I don't know if I'm doing this to myself, to protect me from pain. Or if I'm just unhappy. I work constantly, that could be part of it. I never go out and have fun. Though I do have fun at work, especially after the bosses leave and Erik and Sam are there. They have a way of making me smile through everything. Even though they upset me last weekend, up to that point they had me laughing. The both challenge me intellectually, and I adore that about them. They make me laugh.
But so much is happening outside of that. Things I don't really want to get into. And what I said below is just a portion of it. I don't want to deal with everything. I just want myself back.
I've actually been lonely lately too. And I don't usually need someone near me. Last week I was feeling so disconnected from my family. And then I could barely get a hug from my mom.
I just want to feel connected. To know I'm still a part of my own world. To have more then little moments of happiness.
And before anyone who reads this gets too worried. I'll be okay. I'm not suicidal, I'm trying to make things better to much for that. I want to see everything through. Especially with a certain person. I'll get through things. I always do. I just wish I had someone to come hold me while I cry for awhile. |
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| Same old same old |
[Nov. 2nd, 2003|09:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Run To me" (ironic) Clay Aiken | ] |
I'm just now getting my life back together, why is there talk of moving now?
Can't things stable for once. I like my job, I love the people I work with (which is basically why I like my job). I like where I am right now, but ofcourse that means everything else has to be upside down. Mom wants to move, I can tell in the way she's talking. Larry wants to come home, and he'll want mom with him in Illinois. I refuse to live in Illinois, even though there's I can transfer there with my company. Our head quarters are in St Louis. Adrienne would probably stay here to finish school and stay with Erik, Traci most likely would go back to Illinois, since she's been talking about it. And I don't know what I'll do. I hate being away from family. And Adrienne has asked me to move get an apartment with her and Erik. I don't think that'd be a good idea though. He already drives me crazy, let alone if I lived with him. And I really don't feel like cleaning up after them constantly. I could get an apartment here, but I don't really want to do that either. A huge part of me wants to move to California, I've always wanted to live there. My brother's there and his baby is coming in March. But I would have to get a new job, and my friends aren't there. Not that I go out that much, but I can't imagine liking my co-workers as much anywhere else. I have the best Supervisor in the company too. She really is awesome. And I'm just sick of leaving. I have a friend who's lived in the same place her whole life. Sometimes I wish I knew how that felt. I've always had someone I missed. Always lived somewhere away from people I love. And everytime I start to get comfortable and fit it, things get all mixed up.
That's part of the reason it took me so long to get back out there and meet people. After high school I couldn't take meeting people I'd have to leave again. I withdrew from people a lot. After Larry bought this house I figured I was safe. We'd be here for awhile. And that I wouldn't have to make another decision and leave everyone I cared about. And here I am again. Same ole thing.
Same old feeling. Same lonliness. |
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| quiz time |
[Oct. 29th, 2003|09:46 pm] |
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You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.
What kind of kiss are you?
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| YAY *dances around* |
[Oct. 3rd, 2003|09:26 pm] |
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| | Me Against the Music~Britney and Madonna | ] |
I'm actually taking this weekend off, *celebrates*
We had overtime again this weekend, but I told them no. I've worked the last 7 Saturdays straight, and over labor day weekend I worked 13 days straight through. I'm exhausted, 6 days a week, from 45 to 50 hours a week is to much over 2 months. I've said the last 3 weeks I was going to take a weekend off, and now i'm finally doing it.
Part of that is because I nearly had a total breakdown Wednesday. There's to much going on in my life, between family members breaking down, and worrying about friends, and then dealing with my mom's stress. And trying to keep the house relatively clean.
Wednesday I had this doom feeling in the pit of my stomach most of the morning and into the afternoon. Then it got better for awhile. When I was driving home though I started feeling worse again, and then a guy cut me off and nearly got me killed. By the time I got home I was in a horrible mood. I tried to lock myself in my room, but my mom and sister wouldn't leave me alone. I pretty much had to yell at them to get any space.
I stayed in here on the computer, and would go from just bursting into tears, getting angry and wanting to throw stuff, and being fine or even laughing.
I haven't felt that out of control of my emotions since highschool. I really didn't like it, but there's nothing I could do. To make it worse I was really worried about a particular person, and I need to work on shutting that worry off. Because it's driving me nuts, as much as i care about them. If they aren't willing to share I can't keep this up.
Anyways Thursday morning I was still pretty bad off, I had to fight tears driving to work, then for awhile at work. A few of my friends kept asking what was wrong since I was being so quiet. I'm normally a bubbly, friendly person, so it's a huge contrast when I get into a bad mood. Then we had a team meeting, and being around everyone and talking helped a lot. I was better most of the day, though I did have some relapse in the evening, I got to talk to a friend and that helped a lot.
Then today I was my usual self, for the most part. I had a few times where I got down, but I used my little tricks to get out of them. I know how to get out of depressions pretty quickly usually, or at least how to avoid getting to far down. I think exhaustion just caught up with me finally, and that just made everything worse.
Now I'm ready to party and sleep lol. Especially since I have to go to a dr appt next week, so I have to work next weekend to make up hours lol. I adore the weekends so that helps a lot. It's really relaxed around the office, and they're a lot of fun.
It's also better now that I've got my desk switched. I don't have to be near THAT WOMAN anymore, and I adore everyone who sits in my row now. I always try and be nice to everyone, but this woman just butts into things way to badly. If someone comes and ask me a question (which happens at least once a day), she will roll up and start answering the question, while I'm in MID SENTENCE. Then the final straw is she butted into a VERY person conversation, at a moment where I'd just gotten information that actually knocked the wind out of me. I literally felt like I had been punched with words. I was gasping for air, my stomach hurt and I thought I was going to faint. I was so incredibly worried, and vulnerable at that moment. AND she decides while I'm like that, To start talking about a generalzation with friends she has. Anyone who knows me knows I'm extremely emotional, and when I'm hit with something big, DO NOT MESS WITH ME. I nearly lunged at the woman at that moment. I even got asked about it later, because I guess I made a face too. All I felt at that moment when she started speaking was pure rage. I talked to my supervisor about it, and my supervisor (whom I adore), was already going to move me, but it was going to take a few more weeks. And with this going on, she decided it needed to be moved up. So I got my new desk now YAY. That was a huge relief, and it made me really happy for awhile. It's still a huge help, because I do think I would have totally lost it on her this week had I been near her. Now I just avoid her and if she talks to me, I am as brief as politely possible and then find a way out. It's much safer for her this way.
And I'm NOT a violent person, she just brings out the worse in me. And I really don't like the way it is effecting me.
But over all I think with this little break I'll be fine. What I really want to do is go somewhere (Seaworld sounds good right now) where I can feel 23 instead of 43. I haven't felt my age in so long.
Well this is a long one lol. If anyone made it this far I love you lol. Have a good day/month/year. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2003|10:34 pm] |
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I am sooo sooo so frucking sick of being there for everyone and helping everyone, and never having anyone be here for me
I needed help tonight and who the heck helped? Not a friggen single person... Geez thanks |
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| GRR |
[Sep. 8th, 2003|05:49 pm] |
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I really can't stand MEN! GRRRRRRRR!!! JERKS!!! AKJEF:KLJ:LKFJD:LSKJF:LDAJF:LKSA: GRRRRR! MEN!!! |
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| Something I thought of today |
[Sep. 2nd, 2003|08:20 pm] |
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The best thing about being your friend and not your lover, is I can care about you, without getting my heart broken.
~Kim
I just hope my heart is strong enough to go through all it's going to have to soon. |
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| I PASSED MY TEST!!! |
[Aug. 31st, 2003|07:05 pm] |
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| | ecstatic | ] |
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| | tv | ] |
I'm now a Certified Pharmacy Tech!!!! YAY
The best part is I learned it all on my own with no classes. YAY
I took Jenny and Luke in cards for cause they both are so great and helping me with the math at the last minute lol. And I took in cupcakes too. |
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| Tomorrow is my birthday |
[Jun. 29th, 2003|03:15 pm] |
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Buy me something nice ;} lol |
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| *sighs* |
[Apr. 29th, 2003|10:05 pm] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
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| | "If you're not the one" Daniel Beddingfield. | ] |
Life's good :}
Thank You! |
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| Sorry |
[Apr. 3rd, 2003|03:47 pm] |
Okay, so it's been a really really long time since I've updated. I'm sorry. I've been through a lot lately.
In October I hurt my back really badly and was down for about a month. Then in November I went to California for Thanksgiving at my brother's. I was still hurting but with a ton of Ibuprofen I was able to make it. I even got to go to Sea World, which I loved. I'd always wanted to go there :} The dolphins were so beautiful.
December was hectic as always. Christmas Day was amazing though. It was just me, my mom, and my sisters, but it was just really peaceful and loving and calm. We all really enjoyed it. Then the next day my brother's and their familes came and that all ended. Well one family came that day and then the other came the enxt and we had Christmas dinner then. My brother Kevin just got married and his step-children are demon children.
Then in January I finally got my job. YAY lol. I work at Express Scripts now, a mail order pharmacy, and hopefully will be getting my Pharmacy Tech Certification in June. I'll have to study really hard for the test though. Since then I've been working a lot. We just had a new contract go into effect and we've all had to work at least 50 hours a week and I've been doing mostly 53 to 54, including working Saturdays. So, i'm not doing well on sleep, I don't like having only one day off. But it makes my pay checks really nice. I'm trying really hard not to fall for a guy I work with. He's just so amazing it's taking everything in my being not to. He's kind, sweet, loving, smart, funny, political, religious, cute, can sing, and just everything I've always wanted. But he also has a travel bug, and is supposed to go to Japan in May for awhile. And I really don't think my heart can take anymore of that. It just hurts way to much when I care about someone and they move away, or I move away or both. Then there's the him liking me part lol. But he does keep looking at me, but he's just so nice to everyone that it's hard to tell when he's flirting and when he's just being him. Oh well, I'm not going to worry about it, I'm just going to enjoy any time I get with him, and try not to get my heart into it. It's still so fragile, and I try very hard to keep it safe.
What I hate is that I was at a place where I didn't want a guy in my life. And I'm still happy being with myself. But this guy has changed it a lot. I still don't need a guy, but i'm wanting him really badly. Okay i've got to stop this. Well, there's my little update. Hope you're all having good lives.
God Bless Our Troops. |
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